New Years Resolutions

1. exercise

i always say i will and i do it for a little while and then stop. i still do it sporatically. i want to do regularly.

2. smile more

people say i always look sad or tired. i never really sad but i am really tired all the time. but i will try to smile more.

3. hang out with my friends more

sometimes i tend to just sit in my apt cuz im lazy. i want to actively call their lazy asses and then we can all laze together.

thats it. i dont want to over do it. =]

hi, my name is tammy and i lack motivation

motivation. i lack it. i dont know where it went. like right now, im unmotivated to do my paper. and tomorrow, i will be unmotivated to wake up. hahhahha. that's depressing. but on friday i will be motivated to go to sushi.

back to my unmotivating paper about labor economic policy

wow...this world...

when i first saw the headlines of the mumbai terror attacks, my heart just dropped. the death toll is now higher than 100, with gunmen killing indiscriminately. it just makes me wonder how someone can become so heartless as to be able to gun down so many people. i can't even imagine hurting one person and yet they are hurting not just their victims, but their victims' families. what drives people to that point? a lot of people immediately point their fingers to religion, specifically islam. and yeah, muslim people have gotten a lot of bad press ever since 2001, but i don't believe you can specifically blame religion. thousands of muslim people would probably never think about doing what the gunmen in india are doing right now. its depressing. i dont even really now what to say about it, its always hard for me to wrap my mind around events that cause so much pain to people. i can't think about it any more, it just makes me want to cry

Election Day 2008

wow. i honestly did not think this could happen, but it did. Barack Obama has made history and become the first black president of the united states. it floors me that our nation has come such a long way in just 40 years. im glad we realize that everyone has something to offer, im glad we put a fresh perspective into the oval office. im really happy. hopefully he does some good with it.

prop 8 also needs to not pass. we cannot ban gay marriage if we have hope for change. everyone has the same rights under the constitution and just because they have same sex partners doesn't change that fact. i had an argument with my parents about prop 8. they didn't believe it was a good thing and i asked why. here were their reasons:

1. it's unnatural.

i don't see it as unnatural. sure they can't biologically have babies together, but you are attracted to who you are attracted to, and i don't believe you can just change that. we all have something within ourselves that attract us to certain people. if youre a woman and want to be with a woman or if youre a man that wants to be with a man, go ahead. it doesn't bother me at all. 

2. their children will be confused

who's to say that straight couples can raise children better than gay couples? it's possible that gay couples can raise children who tolerate better, leading to a much brighter future where we can accept each other for our differences instead of hating what we don't like. a gay couple isn't going to make their child gay, that's ridiculous. the child will love who he/she wants to love and no amount of parenting is going to change that.

3. some sort of chinese philosophy about something

i dunno. i pretty much stopped listening at this point. how can you apply something so ancient to such a new way of thinking? and there must have been gay relationships in ancient china, there were in ancient egypt, ancient rome, ancient greece, why does it matter? then i proceeded to call them close-minded, which perhaps wasn't too nice of me. 

and to those who cite religion to say gay marriage is immoral because homosexuality is immoral, then fine, you can have your marriage back, but it should then be a purely religious thing and devoid of all things a marriage now offers, in terms of spousal rights and stuff. because this country was founded on the belief that there should be a seperation of church and state. and the state says that everyone is equal and have the same rights, which means everyone has the right to "marry." if necessary, we'll call them unions and have the legal stuff, whatever. either way, it should be seperate and we should not even be voting on an issue where the answer is clear. banning gay marriage is wrong because we are denying them the right that everyone is afforded.

in class and bored

im in accounting class and its boring. and people keep leaving. that leaves me to wonder how there can be classes like this. it's not engaging at all and has been taught so many times, how can the lesson plan not change? maybe there isn't a fun way to teach accounting, but im sure theres a way you can teach it where the whole class doesn't just leave. it's completely ridiculous. not only that, it wastes my time. i could be watching the tinkerbell movie right now, but no. im watching him flip through powerpoints and drone on and on. outside the context of this class, how anyone can be an accountant is beyond me. it's constantly balancing and its boring. although, when actually doing it, it was a lot more fun than looking at it when he is talking about it. the person behind me just left. but its ok because someone just came in. i dunno. maybe if the class wasn't at 7 pm and didn't last 3 hours, it would be more exciting and i would pay more attention or something. it's just that by 7 i'm so worn out and tired, especially after studying all night, that a 7 pm class isn't very enticing. especially when i can be eating pho. which is what i really want right now, PHO. anyways, i've had many classes like this, where it's just not interesting at all. is it cuz im not paying attention? i really tried to engage myself the first day, but then i realized how useless it was. the whole powerpoint is online, and he posts hw solutions. what's my incentive to come to class? sigh. there's not much i can do i suppose. i just have to get through it and never think about accounting ever again. i just have to hire a really good accountant. 

so what i am a rock star

i do what makes me happy, even if it's not good for me. 

like eating junk food. or procrastinating. it seems like some people are born with the innate ability to eat healthier or to focus. i don't have either. i fear it will make me an obese adult with add. i often wonder why im so unmotivated. is it because i'm really lazy or is it because nothing interests me. of course my non interest could stem from my overwhelming desire to watch tv rather than go outside, but that's beside the point. a class i've taken recently tells me i have to have passion towards what i do. and so i wondered if i was at all passionate about economics, and that's a no. economics is ok, and sometimes i think its fun, but i don't like it that much. of course, my future job has a 75% chance of not being related to economics at all, so i'm really not that worried. and so i wondered if i enjoyed my intership, and i do, certain aspects of it at least. i kinda think inputing data is kinda fun because there are so many different results that can come from it. or maybe it's cuz im new to it. i don't really know what i'm good at either, i'm kinda ok with everything. blah. really, as long as my future occupation involves traveling and eating, i know i will enjoy it. 

well, that's enough procrastination for a night...back to accounting

what what in the butt

so my days are very tiring. and it's worse cuz it's hot. it's not that hot in my apt. but it's hot everywhere else. it's supposed to be fall. 

i so crazily excited for the palin/biden debate and even though i probably won't be able to see it when it's on, i'm sure i'll read about it. i don't think that's she's ready to lead in the least, but hey, she could prove me wrong. i still don't think i will ever like her, but at least i can know that if they do win, we might be ok. might. i'm really curious to see what will happen in the next four years. i feel like there can be great change. i'm also really scared to see what will happen in the next four years because supposedly the world is supposed to end in 2012. maybe they're be like an all out world war and existence will really end, or we'll pass it like we passed y2k. i hope nothing happens because i still have to win the lottery. and seriously, that's one of my life goals. no lie. 

i think my residents are absolutely amazing. they are fun. i like talking to them and showing them strange videos online. now if only they would watch the clue movie....

the truth about men and women

it all started when i thought vaginas are ugly and i came to the truth about men and women. the entire world makes sense to me now. injected are random convo pieces but read on and be enlightened.

AlwaYsSleEpy86: vaginas are totally ugly

raginaheartsyou: lol

raginaheartsyou: penises are worse

AlwaYsSleEpy86: nuh uh

AlwaYsSleEpy86: penis is way awesomer than a vagina

AlwaYsSleEpy86: a penis is simple

AlwaYsSleEpy86: its just there

raginaheartsyou: no a vagina is just there

raginaheartsyou: a penis gets in the way of so many things

raginaheartsyou: i can't just kick and it will be ok

AlwaYsSleEpy86: hahahaha

raginaheartsyou: and when u run

raginaheartsyou: it gets in the way

AlwaYsSleEpy86: i guess thats true

AlwaYsSleEpy86: it would bounce

raginaheartsyou: it does bounce

raginaheartsyou: i've asked

raginaheartsyou: haha

AlwaYsSleEpy86: i never thought to ask

AlwaYsSleEpy86: ive never thought about it...

AlwaYsSleEpy86: now im goingt o ask

raginaheartsyou: oh i've asked

raginaheartsyou: haha

raginaheartsyou: no need to waste yourself the embarrassment

AlwaYsSleEpy86: its not embarassing

raginaheartsyou: i got neardeath stares from anthony

AlwaYsSleEpy86: hahahhaha

AlwaYsSleEpy86: THEY should be embarassed

AlwaYsSleEpy86: hahaha

AlwaYsSleEpy86: poor him

raginaheartsyou: haha

AlwaYsSleEpy86: i asked corn

AlwaYsSleEpy86: im pretty sure his face is like o_O

AlwaYsSleEpy86: i just listened to your fave song

raginaheartsyou: haha

raginaheartsyou: which one?

raginaheartsyou: i have many at the moment

AlwaYsSleEpy86: o

AlwaYsSleEpy86: it'll all be better in tiiimme

raginaheartsyou: oohh

raginaheartsyou: loves it

AlwaYsSleEpy86: britney won three vmas

raginaheartsyou: so rigged

AlwaYsSleEpy86: i know

AlwaYsSleEpy86: she totally looked out of it

AlwaYsSleEpy86: like she kinda iddnt care

AlwaYsSleEpy86: i almost fell off the bed last night its so high

raginaheartsyou: lol

AlwaYsSleEpy86: corn said our boobs also bounce

raginaheartsyou: but ours are more usefull

AlwaYsSleEpy86: so i figure small boobed people are genetically superior cuz it bounces less and therefore we can run further

raginaheartsyou: we can feed people!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AlwaYsSleEpy86: o

AlwaYsSleEpy86: penis creates people?

raginaheartsyou: but still...

AlwaYsSleEpy86: i guess you cant create people without feeding them

AlwaYsSleEpy86: way to start a mess and have us clean it up

raginaheartsyou: lol thats what men are good at

AlwaYsSleEpy86: life makes sense now

raginaheartsyou: i'm sure

AlwaYsSleEpy86: corn i have a question

cornthepen guin: tammy, i have an answer

AlwaYsSleEpy86: does you penis bounce when you run

AlwaYsSleEpy86: is that an awkward question

cornthepen guin: yeah it usually does

cornthepen guin: my balls especially

AlwaYsSleEpy86: o

AlwaYsSleEpy86: that sux

AlwaYsSleEpy86: vaginas dont bounce

cornthepen guin: yeah but your boobs do

AlwaYsSleEpy86: oh yeah

AlwaYsSleEpy86: i dont think humans were made for running if everything bounces

cornthepen guin: i think it makes it interesting

cornthepen guin: cause you get to see our weiners bounce

cornthepen guin: and i get to see your boobs bounce

AlwaYsSleEpy86: hahahahahh

cornthepen guin: it's a fair trade

AlwaYsSleEpy86: i think small boobed people are genetically superior

cornthepen guin: i thought that's why people ran

AlwaYsSleEpy86: cuz then they can run further cuz it bounces less

AlwaYsSleEpy86: you just made me laugh out loud

cornthepen guin: you could argue that small weinered people are just as superior

AlwaYsSleEpy86: yeah

cornthepen guin: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ia06DeCxhTM

AlwaYsSleEpy86: maybe not in the sex dept but deffo in the running dept

cornthepen guin: would you rather be the world's fastest runner? or the world's best sex machine?

AlwaYsSleEpy86: worlds best sex machine

AlwaYsSleEpy86: no contest

cornthepen guin: agreed

AlwaYsSleEpy86: hahahaa i thought so

AlwaYsSleEpy86: i think thats small they created cars

AlwaYsSleEpy86: thats why small penised people created cars

cornthepen guin: small penised people should be running all over the place

cornthepen guin: they don't have to worry about sheit

AlwaYsSleEpy86: lol

AlwaYsSleEpy86: i suppose

Blog Blog Bloggy Blog

I've decided to blog about my life. People have said they'll read it...so i'll do it. 

so i've moved back into campus village and that in itself is scary. it's the final time i'll be moving in somewhere during my college experience. it's the first last of something. it gives me the shivers to think about it. yeah i've said i'm ready to leave college and that is true but it doesn't make it any less scary. all i've known up to now is going to school. i've had jobs but nothing that will be commanding my life 9-5. it's mind boggling really. what's most amazing is just how incredibly fast it went. at the same time, first year seems like it was ages ago. i don't know if i want to go to school anymore either, but i had always planned on grad school. i'm just really sick of tests and bad teachers. i'm sure i'll have my share of bad paperwork and horrible bosses too. 

well, now is not the time to dwell on it. all i can really do now is focus on making my last year here the most memorable for both myself and for my residents. i'm super excited to be an RA again. i love it, it made college just that much more funner. hahah funner. im forcing them to hang out with me. 

btw, if battlestar galactica really isn't airing til june, i'm dressing up as a cylon and attacking the scifi channel. seriously, best show ever.